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Lets rewind to 3 days ago.
Chem prac.
I once thought that i'll be able to put in my BEST performance, no careless mistakes, for the final and ultimate exam - the 'O's. How wrong was I. Careless mistakes still do happen. And this time, I threw away 2 marks. The instruction was to let the solution stand. For both times, nothing happened when the solution stood, or so i presume. So all I had to write was 'nothing was observed' 2 times, to get 2 marks. But seeing nothing, i wrote nothing, and therefore will receive nothing.
Anyway, the completion of o'lvl chem prac is definitely a reason to celebrate. So i went to catch a movie, and took a break from studying the whole day.
The next day, after a 2 hr consultation with Ikhwan, I left after eating lunch for.. RJ open house. What I saw.. was a different class of people. Not like the Victorian culture, perhaps a higher class. The Rafflesian culture. Lets compare the 2 cultures. The victorian 1 is more of a 'heartlanders' kind, more of the 'commoners' kind, whereas the Rafflesian culture is more of a 'high-class, highly-intelligent' kind. For example, if a group of Victorians was thinking of going to watch a rock concert, a group of Rafflesians would be sitting in the Esplanade watching a musical from.. France?
With all the attachments from Universities all over they're getting, the number of As they have, the whole new site that would be the biggest JC campus in Singapore, going independent.. Going to Raffles would really expose me to a whole new variety of opportunities, a totally different class of culture, which might be quite interesting. Or.. I'd find that I cannot fit in.
Vipul has been brainwashed into going to Raffles. Now would I? If I want to go there, it means I'd have to repeat my prelim feat for my O's. And as much as I would like to do the best I can, I HATE to put pressure on myself.
Going to Raffles open house has broadened my outlook. Over the past few days, I find that our mind has a limited scope. Based on our experiences, we think and act a certain way, and we think that other people would think along that same lines as you. Somehow, when you don't really understand their actions, you feel puzzled. The fact is that once you get to experience what they have experienced, you'd understand why some people act the way they do, why some things work they way they do. Therefore, I would need to continue to open up my mind to new experiences, perhaps talk to more people who have 'been there, done that' and finally make up my mind. But for now, Victoria is still the top of the list.
With the day spent today out at my friends house, I have effectively not studied for 3 days. In normal circumstances, I'd be very worried. But I found out that I have a 1 week break during the O'lvls race, before my science and geog papers. So I'd use that week break to study those subjects. For now, all I need to study would be: Lit, A.maths and S.S. Seems simple enough. 1 week should be more than enough, considering I normally do last-min-studying.
Because of the O's, I have had a myriad of feelings. Worry, nervousness.. and the latest - excitement. Right. The nearer your O's get, the more reason you should get excited. We have been studying for 4 years in secondary school life, effectively, these 4 yrs are for our O'lvls. If we flunk our O'lvls, we can say that we have just thrown away 4 years of our lives in school for NOTHING. But if we ace the O'lvls, the 4 yrs would have been worthwhile. The incredible weightage that the O'lvls have on our impending future, have let to lots of depression and worry. Yet, don't be a wimp. Don't be afraid. There is a danger.. a risk.. as we take the O'lvls. Coz we cannot afford not to do well. But with the danger, comes the sense of thrill. This sense of danger will pump up your heart, and your spirits, to give you a sense of thrill. Its do or die. Its fun. Take it easy. Because you have only 2 paths -
1) Dread throughout
OR
2) Enjoy
You choose.
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