This is a joint blog shared by 2 lazy pple - Ciping & Wilbur, who wishes to use each other to maintain the blog. Sadly, Ciping is the more inactive one and Wilbur does most of the work in the end. Feel free to post comments on the tag-board, it feels good to know pple are actually reading and responding to your posts. It gives motivation to write more.
I left my house for lunch at BK with Marcus, Denys, Wilfred, Farand & Andrew.. The time was soon up, and we had to go to school. Met Terrence, my VJ classmate, from VS too on the bus. He told me,
"Hey, I heard they will put up the results of top students on the notice board first."
"Really ar? Don't think so.. they say 2.30 rite.. means 2.30 then release ma.."
With that, I assured myself.
Off the bus, on the pathway to school, my 4H classmates said,
"YES! They put up the top students on the notice boards."
"Oh no.. REallly???!! NO.... cannot..... this... can't.. be.. they can't do that??!! Oh no.. "
My heart started beating faster as my footsteps quicken. I was panting hard. You must understand that before this, everyone has been telling me, "Ar.. u 6pts 1.. sure no prob". Unwittingly, they have built up the pressure on me to do well again. And of couse, I seriously hoped to attain that result again. After 4 yrs of studying, shouldn't I hope to achieve the best that I have ever managed to achieve?
So when I saw the large group of people gathered around the notice board, I immediately rushed there and heard, "Eh Wilbur got 7 pts." I didn't know what to react. I knew that was a good result, but in my mind I was thinking, "hmm.. which sub deproved?" And of course, I felt a tinge of disappointment. But as I got back my result slip, it was more of a "wasted la" feeling. It was soo ironic, my Literature, which I have never managed to get an A1 b4, got an A1, while my English achieved an A2. So for those who said in my tagboard that my english was very good, you can retract your words now. Anyway, its perfectly all right to be imperfect, its human nature. So those who got 8 A1s.. like Leonard.. are not human. =p
Yet, the focus of the day was not me. The spotlight was shone on others... like... *drumroll*
1. Wen Hao
From 17 (around there la) to 9. Marvellous improvement.
2. Andrew
From 17 to 8? And now he's sad coz he dunno whether he shld go VJ. Some1 smack him. But still, congrats.
3. Sean
From 17 to 9. (Actually I dunno the actual prelim results, just estimating) Anyway that is a great improvement. I expect a treat Sean, right?
4.Ciping
From 20 to 10! He was so happy until he teared. So what do you make of it?
5. Denys
From 15 to 7. He was overjoyed.
To all these people, and those who got 10 points and below, hope to see you in VJ. My hope was that our class would be able to do well for O's. And indeed many has proven their true capabilities, although previous results might have been discouraging, we endured and have passed out well.
But yet, how can we forget the others.. who have put in their fair bit of effort but yet obtained less than satisfactory results? Some have stayed stagnant, improved a little, and of course one would feel disappointed after seeing the others improve by so much. Perhaps it was a combination of luck, effort, and wise time management. Do not be disappointed though. You still have your 'A's, I still have my 'A's. Plenty of other opportunities.
Overall, still have to thank God for my results. Since its really kind of like a perfect result for me. If I get 8 A1s, i would probably be overjoyed but I would grow complacent. Also, at least now people would stop calling me 6-pter. And hey, I can still qualify for all the scholarships. Add to that, much of my stress was taken away before my exams, and I was actually able to feel quite confident right up till the day of the results, where, unfortunately, I started to show anxiety.
I'm going to chiong all out during this 2 yrs of jc life, until I can no longer take it anymore and just decide to be un-enthu and concentrate on studying. But till then, I'll train hard for kayaking, and apply for whatever scholarships I can, overseas attachments and just make full use of my time. So far, I went for 2 interviews - pre-u seminar, n house comm - though I think I have a slim chance of passing these, since they select only 30 for pre-u seminar, and 6 / 20 something for hse comm, at least I have some experience in interviews. And hopefully, I'll be able to be more confident and do better when its time for interviews which really matter.
To those out there, I encourage you to just stretch yourself to the limit and see how far you can actually go.
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